She was right, as she has so often been. There’s strength in team, I realized. In family, in my doctors, in the Lord. I remembered Dwaine’s verse: God had gone ahead of me. He was with me and would not forsake me. A calm came over me. I don’t have to do this alone, I realized. For the first time since Christmas Eve I felt myself relax. My whole body just sort of let go. Six weeks of chemotherapy and radiation was grueling. I couldn’t eat, my hair fell out, I felt plain lousy. The one good thing in all of this was that I met Dr. Hassenbusch. He gave me hope. Before I got sick, I awoke each day with all the things I needed to accomplish running through my mind.

她是对的,如同她经常是正确的一样.我认识到,力量存在于集体中.力量存在于家庭里,存在于我的医生们中,力量在上帝那里.我想起了德威尼的诗句:上帝走在我的前面,他陪伴着我,他不会抛弃我.我镇定了下来.我觉得自己不必单独面对疾病.自从平安夜之后,我第一次感觉自己放松了.我整个的身体仿佛轻松了很多.六周的化疗和放疗是令人痛苦不堪的.我吃不下,头发脱落,感觉非常糟糕.这段痛苦的日子里碰上的一件好事,是我认识了Hassenbusch博士.他给了我希望.在得病前,我每天早晨醒来时,都会把需要做的所有的事在脑子里过一遍.